或者我醒来也不该当真
two weeks of sneaky glances, the awkward slight turning of the body, the minor turning of the head not visible but only if you noticed the eyes, and all of that in a full package sign sealed and delivered right onto my lap. Give me that walking past excessively and looking when you think shes not noticing, or turning away super quickly when you turn and caught her staring, all packed into it as well.
on the other side....
You even know her full name because you took extra look at the register and at her signature trying to determind something...(no, to be honest I don't rem cos her name's too long). You even know she has two yellow shirts, and she's a sneaker girl. Not only that, you even notice she has a similar watch to yours and wears a bangle on the same wrist as you.
Sounds familiar?
Well, thats when I though she was gonna finally come up to me (well maybe not, maybe she might go through mariyani), I killed it before it could happen. Oh, totally unintentionaly.
Maybe it is because its been such a long time and my skills are all but rusty and/or maybe its also because there wasn't a need to hook somebody or anybody for that matter, all credited to this certain nooner with sbd for the past years, saved me from swimming (and drowning) in the sea of pursuit.
I mean, how stupid can you be?
ok, I wasn't noticing my environment cos I was (and still is) suffering from gastric.
I said " I'm interested in the matter and not person"
And she was sitting two rows in front of me and she fcuking turned and looked at me right after I said that. (twas during break time) With a kong pia face.
And that came from, me trying to play ignorance. So I said that I am only interested in confirming and not interested in the person.
Isn't that sad? Well, I could be interested... Right? And maybe, I am interested. Oh hell, I think I am interested.
And after class, she walked past me with a damn straight face. Can you believe it? She didnt even look at me, (no you know how you might be facing forward but this certain angle without moving your eyeballs visibly you could actually see things in that angle? IT DIDNT EVEN HAPPEN). I knew cos I was doing that lah. And you know it when you don't feel it. Confirm, not because I am not sensitive, but because it seriously didn't happen la! DAMMIT.
okay, how come I'm becoming so ditzy.
Urghs. Oh nevermind. And to be really truthful, I din't notice her at all except that benny asked me few terms ago to determind if she was a guy or a girl... Yes, but she's more pla in a really butch way than a bung. She's also vietnamese, was in my class for Stats but she sat really far from me. Or rather, I'm always with benny during that class anyway.
Argh, okay nevermind. At least she isnt in my DDM class, she's taking BA and i'm taking marketing.
Doesn't really matter because I hate it most when and especially its just because.
On another hand,
I met Geraint Wong yesterday.
Twas in the car cos I sent eli to sch for her lit paper 1 (oh, tell me abt it. We used to have lit straight 3 hours with half an hour break in between. I still rem I wrote until my hand almost became handicapped. They have it on separate days now! How unfair!) and my car was slowly moving and he appeared from my blind spot trying to cross.
I didn't recognise him at all for the first second. Just these pair of eyes that look bloody familiar. Then it registered the next moment when he smiled and waved. And so, yes I smiled and waved too.
That's all.
Haha, well. I guess he's too busy to cut his hair thats why he's looking so weird. But really, many things seems to flood back after his acknowledgement cos ya know. You've been through so many battles and he's involved in some of the more emotional ones.
A very huge sense of nostalgia and that's very depressing. Especially it's raining a lot these days and its perpectually gray outside, very milanese, yes indeed, xcept the humidity.
*
After so damn long of searching. There is finally one song out there that speaks of my feelings to the heart of blood. (HAHA! what mf engrish is that?)
难道爱就这么沉重
以为它像轻飘飘的解脱
旋转木马情节的小说
总在华丽的瞬间从头
难道情就是这么迷惑
以为它像你纤细的指头
划过了我屏息的眼眸
怎会变成我需要去挣脱
不过是爱上你
不过想在一起
在一起不分离
猛烈的冲撞就封住了心窝
本来我就是一个人来
也习惯一个人
又何苦你要给我那样的吻
或者我醒来也不该当真
你偷走我的灵魂
你不是纯粹那么隆重
是他安排的人
我现在一直对自己这样否认
绝对我不能当作没发生
是谁在暗地里说
*-
不该当真? 真的不该当真?
I refuse to be any more emo than this.
I'm really happy to hear that anyway, thanks.
-.
Don't try to wake my I.D okay? (check: sigmund freud, he's my fav guy of the moment! )
Musik: Baby bash - suga how you get so fly
And yes CANDY. I love you too.
on the other side....
You even know her full name because you took extra look at the register and at her signature trying to determind something...(no, to be honest I don't rem cos her name's too long). You even know she has two yellow shirts, and she's a sneaker girl. Not only that, you even notice she has a similar watch to yours and wears a bangle on the same wrist as you.
Sounds familiar?
Well, thats when I though she was gonna finally come up to me (well maybe not, maybe she might go through mariyani), I killed it before it could happen. Oh, totally unintentionaly.
Maybe it is because its been such a long time and my skills are all but rusty and/or maybe its also because there wasn't a need to hook somebody or anybody for that matter, all credited to this certain nooner with sbd for the past years, saved me from swimming (and drowning) in the sea of pursuit.
I mean, how stupid can you be?
ok, I wasn't noticing my environment cos I was (and still is) suffering from gastric.
I said " I'm interested in the matter and not person"
And she was sitting two rows in front of me and she fcuking turned and looked at me right after I said that. (twas during break time) With a kong pia face.
And that came from, me trying to play ignorance. So I said that I am only interested in confirming and not interested in the person.
Isn't that sad? Well, I could be interested... Right? And maybe, I am interested. Oh hell, I think I am interested.
And after class, she walked past me with a damn straight face. Can you believe it? She didnt even look at me, (no you know how you might be facing forward but this certain angle without moving your eyeballs visibly you could actually see things in that angle? IT DIDNT EVEN HAPPEN). I knew cos I was doing that lah. And you know it when you don't feel it. Confirm, not because I am not sensitive, but because it seriously didn't happen la! DAMMIT.
okay, how come I'm becoming so ditzy.
Urghs. Oh nevermind. And to be really truthful, I din't notice her at all except that benny asked me few terms ago to determind if she was a guy or a girl... Yes, but she's more pla in a really butch way than a bung. She's also vietnamese, was in my class for Stats but she sat really far from me. Or rather, I'm always with benny during that class anyway.
Argh, okay nevermind. At least she isnt in my DDM class, she's taking BA and i'm taking marketing.
Doesn't really matter because I hate it most when and especially its just because.
On another hand,
I met Geraint Wong yesterday.
Twas in the car cos I sent eli to sch for her lit paper 1 (oh, tell me abt it. We used to have lit straight 3 hours with half an hour break in between. I still rem I wrote until my hand almost became handicapped. They have it on separate days now! How unfair!) and my car was slowly moving and he appeared from my blind spot trying to cross.
I didn't recognise him at all for the first second. Just these pair of eyes that look bloody familiar. Then it registered the next moment when he smiled and waved. And so, yes I smiled and waved too.
That's all.
Haha, well. I guess he's too busy to cut his hair thats why he's looking so weird. But really, many things seems to flood back after his acknowledgement cos ya know. You've been through so many battles and he's involved in some of the more emotional ones.
A very huge sense of nostalgia and that's very depressing. Especially it's raining a lot these days and its perpectually gray outside, very milanese, yes indeed, xcept the humidity.
*
After so damn long of searching. There is finally one song out there that speaks of my feelings to the heart of blood. (HAHA! what mf engrish is that?)
难道爱就这么沉重
以为它像轻飘飘的解脱
旋转木马情节的小说
总在华丽的瞬间从头
难道情就是这么迷惑
以为它像你纤细的指头
划过了我屏息的眼眸
怎会变成我需要去挣脱
不过是爱上你
不过想在一起
在一起不分离
猛烈的冲撞就封住了心窝
本来我就是一个人来
也习惯一个人
又何苦你要给我那样的吻
或者我醒来也不该当真
你偷走我的灵魂
你不是纯粹那么隆重
是他安排的人
我现在一直对自己这样否认
绝对我不能当作没发生
是谁在暗地里说
*-
不该当真? 真的不该当真?
I refuse to be any more emo than this.
I'm really happy to hear that anyway, thanks.
-.
Don't try to wake my I.D okay? (check: sigmund freud, he's my fav guy of the moment! )
Musik: Baby bash - suga how you get so fly
And yes CANDY. I love you too.
